Public Humiliation -- Dramatic Monologue!

Another one! And this time it is something we never expected!

It was an impromptu one. We were given 5 minutes to write the scripts. Just when we were done with the scripts, Dr Kamarul said that we were going to perform the monologue written by others! Frankly speaking, our lecturer is always full of surprises, and I do like that idea! 

So off we went up to the stage, performing. Well I was too busy enjoying the performance that I forgot how to be nervous! That was a plus point to my performance, as keeping a cool head made me think clearer. I was requested to act out the thoughts of a marathon runner. So I acted! My friends comments are positive, so thank God!

Others told me they feel more secure and calm if they are given time to prepare first. But I am the opposite. Don't judge me, I am a spontaneous person and I prefer to act it out on the spot. The outcome not only surprises the audience; it also surprises me. And I love the surprises I bring to myself. I never know I could be capable of doing these stuff before then. Acting by yourself is no easy task because there is no communication happening. Nevertheless it is fun to see one talking to himself/herself. It is just a way of voicing out thoughts. It is a way of self-expression. Self expression is very important because it enables you to show your personality. Again, it is related to teaching. Teaching requires teacher to express himself, and since he would be giving lecture most of the time, the thing is pretty much close to a monologue. 

Thank you Dr Kamarul for the surprises. Thank you for bringing us into a whole new world, and let us explore it. Well, at least no boring lectures!

Next mission: TO BE REVEALED.....

Public Humiliation? Aye or Nay? -- Children's Theatre!

So, for my Public Humiliation course... we actually done a lot of stuff, and children theatre is one of them. But our children's theatre was not the REAL children's theatre as you expect, because we were just organising a one-day English workshop in SK Taman Hi-Tech Kulim. The purpose of the workshop is to encourage the students to speak and use English in their daily lives.The workshop included a puppet theatre session, choral speaking session and also the cup game. I am in charge of the cup game session. Okay then, straight to my point!

First, the students were hardly controllable! It's because they didn't come with remote controls, I suppose...(LOL) Jokes aside, I believe children are restless, but I don't recall that that was how I used to be!  I mean, how could they be so highly-spirited even after a long day? Here comes the problem, because they just could not get their mouths shut, not even when the emcee is speaking. Luckily one of us came up with some tricks, and we got hold of the children. They just needed more patience to guide and deal with after all. We could not blame them because they did not want to pay attention to us, it was our fault for not being fun!

Although they love to have fun, I find that children sometimes are even more responsible than adults. In all the sessions, they showed their eagerness to learn and to perform well. They had the courage to ask and to correct themselves when mistakes were made. They knew their roles and played them cooperatively. It makes me feel ashamed that we adults are less cooperative than them. Some were too shy to approach us, but with a little bit of kindness they managed to get themselves involved and gave their best. I have no words to describe the feeling but touched.

When it came to my cup song session, the students just could not stop playing with the cups given. I had to ask them to put their hands in the air so that they could pay attention on what I was going to say. It was funny but effective. Their eyes shone with eagerness to learn. Somehow, some of them were not able to follow what we said. I found some children looked at us with puzzled eyes. When I approached them, they told me they did not understand the instructions given and did not know what to do. I had to explain to them in simpler English, and also explaining in Malay. As teachers, we must pay extra attention on those who are easily forgotten and shy, not leave them aside and tend to the active ones. This is actually a serious issue, because teachers are not supposed to be biased.

The children were very polite that they came to us and gave their salams before leaving. I recognised some from LELAC camp, and they also greeted me. It is a great pleasure that your students recognise you and appreciate you. The thought of it warms my heart. The reward of being a teacher is the feeling of being appreciated.

This is not the first time I organised or take part in a workshop or camp. But this is the first time I am handling a bunch kids as an adult, and as a teacher. Children are simple with pure hearts. I would love to be with them. Although they could be annoying, most of the time they are adorable. All they need is a little more patience, a little more love, a little more care and lots of communication. To speak to children, you have to use their language. Simple, true and straight forward. I understand why Dr. Kamarul asks us to organise this workshop. Not only we benefit the children, we also learn a lot from them. Being a teacher is not easy. You should guide them, but not lead them. You should care for them, but not do their things for them. You should love them, but remember to share your love equally. Most of all you have to be willing to teach. They know if you are willing or reluctant, and this shows through their attitude towards you.

I feel like I want to be a child again.

Public Humiliation -- Voice Modulation

Everything happens for a purpose.

Everyday is a new discovery.

Voice modulation is the thing where we have to act like animals and do their sounds, plus a story line. My partner and I spent two days on the costumes, basically sitting in our room sewing. So, as we were acting as the rhinoceros, we spent hours searching for the exact shades of grey that could match our clothes. We managed to get the same shades of grey for the shirts and pants, but then the vest was of a different shade... And then I realised why the movie was named "Fifty Shades of Grey". Well, it could be applied literally. hahaha (not funny) To our surprise, the costumes turned out to be quite nice.

After acting the scene and reviewing back what we had acted, I found that I am really no good actor after all. The scene that I had imagined in my mind turned out differently when I acted it out. That makes me realise why professional actors and actresses have to act out the same scene over and over again. My partner and I practised the scene before, and it turned out quite good. But things went different on the day of performance. I would not take stage fright as an excuse, but to me, I believed I was worn out by the same scene that I got bored myself before acting it out.

I am a spontaneous person with spices of humour. Because of the spontaneous quality in me, I tend to get bored easily when I do the same thing over and over again. I prefer a life full of adventure than a routine. I think I should get used to routine then? By the way, since practice makes perfect, I think I should practice more before the performance, and the best thing is to record them into videos so that I can got through them and improve on the weaknesses.

Voice modulation is not carried out for the sake of acting. Dr Kamarul told us he wanted us to be  "abnormal" teachers, not boring, dull ones. To be a good teacher, you would have to have the ability to grab the students' attention, just like what you do when you are performing. The audience needs to be pay attention to you, and you should be the star under the lime light. Voice projection is also important, in order to convey your messages clearly. The main thing is you should not be the one who is "syiok sendiri" on the stage. Through this activity, I discovered a new facet of me. I learnt that it is easy to be an attention seeker, but it is not easy to be the one who gets the attention. Same happens when you are managing your class, if you could not get the attention, you failed to manage it.

On the way to be a better teacher.

Stop Tickling Furry Unicorns! (STFU!)

Sorry guys, I thought I could get rid of this habit of finding fault in people, but then, I am wrong. These people are so annoying that I wish I can shut their big mouths and give them high fives in their faces.

The thing is, they think there is no problem with them. And that alone, is a HUGE problem. I could not act as if I didn't know anything, and that's why I am here. Ranting on the stupid stuff people do.

First, I would like to talk about my dear course mates. We are facing a lot of coursework at the same time so I would say that it is quite heavy for us to handle. Well, it would be just fine if all of us work together, but there are some who don't want to cooperate. Okay, that's still fine enough. Worse still, there are people who thinks that he or she is the most superior among all of us, and would like to lead us, BUT HE MESSED THINGS UP! F*** YOU! Whoever it is, he or she definitely drew my dark sides out of me.

Second, the fakers a.k.a the back-stabbers. No comment, because I am sick of them.

All of you know, when I am angry or upset, I tend to write them down. So they pretty much contributed a lot, by becoming my facebook statuses. But then, as a matter of fact, sometimes it is just some by-products of my creative thinking and I decided to write them down, and it is not meant to address anyone. BUT THERE ARE THIS KIND OF PEOPLE WHO TAKE THINGS PERSONALLY BECAUSE THE WORLD REVOLVES AROUND HIM OR HER! And they think that they are being attacked by me, so they posted statuses to attack me back. No wonder I find the statuses so coherent. Hmm, good job guys.

There is also this "SENIOR CITIZEN" or "SENIOR-CITIZEN-TO-BE" that loves to "EDUCATE" others using his "KNOWLEDGE". Oh come on, we don't need Nazis here. I know you are the best among the best, but don't you know HUMBLE IS A VIRTUE? HOW COULD A PERSON SO PERFECT LIKE YOU NOT KNOW?!

STOP TICKLING FURRY UNICORNS, CAN'T YOU?
Pity those beautiful creatures...

Public Humiliation in Action?!

(*drum roll!)

Hey guys! Remember the " Public Humiliation" thingy I told you guys before? Now, it is back in action! Literally we spent a few weeks not providing public entertainment because we had been having drama classes indoors. Now, the public entertainment will start till the end of semester...
Well I am totally speechless, because the thought of it could send me the shivers.

So last week we spent the morning entertaining the passers-by. Our task was -- " do whatever you want". So with that, I am ashamed to say that me and my partner performed a bitchy quarrel scene that was pretty much humiliating. I am not going to elaborate on what I had done, I am not satisfied with myself. Well maybe I am not good in acting after all.

Next week we will be performing as ANIMALS. Currently working on the costumes, thanks to my rommie which is also my partner, her delicate fingers make work faster. I hope the next performance is ridiculous enough to entertain you guys! Just stay tuned because I am not going to tell you what kind of animals I am performing, hahaha!

For now, keep fighting!

Truth?!

They see me as the hater,

I wonder why would I be?

For all I do is for the latter,

Or whoever needed me.

My words are spikes, sour and bitter;

But they meant as what they should be:

For real words never sounded better,

As what others sweet-talking be. 

I am no back-stabber, 

Nor I meant to be such a nuisance; 

But truth is always uglier

Than what it seems to be.

So come on, stop misunderstanding me,

For I speak only the truth, 

And let the truth be me.

Human?!

When I first started this blog, I haven't really think much. I didn't even have a solid reason. Then, it becomes a habit. A habit that I would like to keep no matter what happens.

Sometimes I wonder, maybe I shouldn't transform my thoughts into words. My words affect, or if not hurt, others deeply. Again I feel that I should reveal the dark side of human nature. To let the blind see and to let the deaf hear. To let the cold-blooded feel and to let the brave fear. Fear of losing the goodness in human.

It is not my purpose to use my words to attack someone. But it is my purpose to attack the vices, the wrong-doings of human. Have you not see? If you can't, let me tell you. If you don't understand, let me explain. All I want is, don't you EVER do the wrong thing AGAIN.

But human are naive. They think they are the only ones intelligent enough to get hold of the world.  They think they are the most superior, the most qualified, the most beautiful, the most and the most until they forget, without the world, they wouldn't even exist. They forget to thank God for everything they have. They forget to look into themselves and reflect. They forget how to be human.

I am afraid one day, there would be no more human left. The ones left are merely creatures in a human body, or worse, devils.

Let human be human, could you?

Blind?!

 I still have a lot of things waiting to be done, a long list. But then, since I promised to blog once a week, blogging is in my to do list too. It has been a hectic week, but then there is no resting after that. Waves upon waves continue hitting me relentlessly. Well then I think I should continue to embrace them by all means. 

I know, most of my blog posts are negative, and it happens to me that I am not a very positive thinker. But, the world's vices need to be exposed so that people blind enough can see and take action to cure them. Again, there are people who are blind enough that they can't see anything. And it is this kind of people I detest. 

One language does not promote unity. Unity comes from the heart, the conscience, the people who are noble enough, selfless enough to accept others. If you wouldn't give up your so-called pride, you are never going to make it to unity. Indeed, this is what Malaysians do. They are so self-contented and have the mind-set that they are always superior than others. And that is why Malaysians NEVER make it. Unity. 

We make fun of ourselves. We bring the humiliation to public and let the world laugh. But why? Why are we not learning to improve? What have we done after that? Why are we blind enough not to see what harm we have done to our nation? 

When people give you advice, or scold you, or criticise you, they want you to improve. They want you to grow up. They want you better. They want you to be brave enough to know what mistake you have done. They want you to be selfless. They want you to get rid of your so-called pride and be human. They want you to bring the world to a better tomorrow. Not that they are racist.

Everything starts small, until they become big. Everything needs care, until they grow up.

You are never superior unless you have the knowledge, the power, and the quality to be a leader.

Not that you can over-shine me. Because I know you won't. You ain't real leader.

You are the one using dark tactics when people are not seeing to get what you want.

But that doesn't work on me. As long as I am alive.