Back in Action!

Hi guys and girls, sorry I have been MIA from this blog for quite a while. My dear friend named "inspiration"won't visit me so there is nothing to write. And maybe because of the two weeks break without a paper... it  made me idle for a while too. But then I wouldn't want to simply post anything here, I am afraid I might get disappointed by my own writing. By the way, I probably should start writing now, since my next paper needs me to write, I might as well do some practice here, right?

I have lots of thoughts, tons of them, on trending issues. but you would not find me writing on them. Well, at least not now. Because I know when I wrote that down, I am going to get myself in trouble, a deep shit one, probably. So I spent quite an amount of time to stop myself from doing that, and for my sake I will continue that effort. I am not going to become the terrorist.

Recently addicted to Korean dramas and now watching a psychopath serial killer one (TV series: Gap dong). Here you go. 

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gap-dong

Yup, you got my point. The handsome young man is actually the psycho, and watching him acting send shivers down my spine. And what a good timing, because I came across it when I was diving the net and found it and start watching it instead of studying for my finals. Applause for my boldness. (*Sigh) So far went through 12 episodes of the drama and things got creepier. Curiosity killed the cat... but let's just hope I am not the cat. I could not STOP!

The same thing also happens when I abuse my health. It's final you know, and if I want to study I have to keep myself awake, and if I want to stay awake I would drink coffee, so eventually I overdosed myself with caffeine. The reversal effects were so much on me that not only I could not stay awake, I could not sleep well as well. I felt like I am neither conscious nor dead. Thw whole world seemed to be falling apart and combining the pieces at the same time, Huh, caffeine is a drug anyway. So this is how a drug addict feel huh?

Well, I think the solution is to get some sleep then. I'm off now, bye!

Unpopular Opinion: Optimistic VS Pessimistic

It's nearly final and everyone involved (or so I think) started to study or complain, but most of us do both. But there are certain human beings who keep on saying:"I can do it! You can do it! Fighting! All the best!", and another group of human beings who say:"Oh my God, I'm dead. Somebody save me!" So that brings me to the unpopular opinion of today: Optimistic vs Pessimistic.

I am never in favour of both types of people. Nah, they are just annoying. Well for your information, I am neither both. Optimists view things over confidently that they do not even see the danger coming. When things happen, all they say is "everything's gonna be okay", but in fact you can see that it is totally not okay at all. Sometimes optimists go way too optimistic that to certain extent, people feel that they are just merely finding excuses.The same thing goes to pessimists. They give a lot of reasons they feel insecure about, to the extend that people feel they are giving excuses not to do anything. No doubt, if you have friends full of positive energy, they will give you heart attack; and friends with thoughts so negative will give you migraine. I would not want both.

Sincerely speaking, everything needs to be in equilibrium. Most people are a bit of both, depend on the situation. Nevertheless, I am in the opinion that we should be realistic. See things in the most logical way. Face the situation, analyse it and solve it. Why bother so much fuss on what might happen next? Focus on "NOW" and within no time, you will know what to do next. Rather than words of motivation or complaints, think of the consequences if you didn't start working now. Then you will get to work, as simple as that. 

So be a realist, get to work and save yourself. For those having finals, save your grades. Good luck!

Distracting myself...

It's study week and apparently I have not spend a single hour on my study YET. Been distracting myself with different stuff and entertainment. Tried to find the motivation for my study but to no avail. Fall in love with this oppa's songs so I keep on listening over and over again. How wonderful if I could sing and pass my finals. Okay, I think I should stop day dreaming, but for now, let me immerse in these songs first~

from Kim Sung Kyu album "27"

Disturbed...

There are moments in life where you could not even voice out your feelings, and now I'm experiencing these moments. Nothing really went wrong, but there was the feeling "but".Been having disturbed sleep for a week now, and can't find any problems related to it, so there is no solution. Keep waking up in the middle of the night and startled myself. I wonder what my doubts are, and I could not even tell me. It's study week now and I am not in study mode nor study mood. And I am not even in writing mood even though now I am writing this. I know you can feel it. Sorry guys.

All I hope is that my normal self would come back and visit me soon.