After much thought, I think it would be okay to just use her real name. It is never wrong to be true, so here you go. This is me replying to her.
Lyndsey,
How are you doing today ?
Now that a day has gone by after our call, I would love it if you could let me know if the Coaching call was helpful to you and if yes, how did it help you with reference to the Tarot messages you had received earlier. Also, what could have made it better ?
Much love
Anjali
Dear Anjali,
This would be a very long message again :) I must write it ALL down, because the Universe speaks to me - with intensity and abundance. It showed me that the love I should receive is infinite - and I would be receiving more and more afterwards. I could not express how much gratitude I felt - it was like a dark veil had been lifted and suddenly I could see clearly. Each and every puzzle came together suddenly made sense - and I knew, I was blessed all along. I was never abandoned. It was me - who has refused to listen to all the guides the Universe has sent. It was so overwhelming and at the same time so liberating. I truly believe that I have the power to “release and let go”, just like the spread that you have chosen for me.
After the call I was so relieved and felt that I was freed - from all the unnecessary weights I had been carrying all along. I realised the importance to see - with a clear mind and soul, and to differentiate between responsibility and guilt. It is important to make wise choices - ones that would make us grow and prosper, ones that would help us and our loved ones to heal. It is also equally important to say no - to set healthy boundaries and stay firm to our own decision. There is no need to feel guilty because we have refused to take what others offer. It is just pure common sense: we know that junk food is unhealthy, so we refuse to take them. No one should blame you for taking care of yourself, and most importantly, I should not be guilt-trapping myself for making choices for my own benefits.
I made it a point to completely shut out the guy whom I have mentioned to you. Little did I know, maybe he was meant to be one of the teachers in my life. After I explained to him my views to him, he replied with equal sincerity. His message made me realise that I have always been applying the same concept and destructive behaviour in my interpersonal relationships. I have always been a people pleaser - in the hope of getting the same attention that I was giving out. But just as you have said during our call, I would not receive love if I keep on emitting “hurting” signals. He made me realise that there is no absolute way to a situation. There are lots of perspectives and ways to solve a problem, and I should not force my thoughts and principles on others. I am glad that I did not shut him out because his words gave me such insights to my past behaviours. Now I see how inflexible I was in dealing with my life. How conservative and closed-minded was I. I am so glad that I am able to see my mistakes. And now it is exactly the time to change, to heal. And maybe I should keep him in my life, as in the beginning, he served as a “trigger”, a key to my healing journey; and now, he gives me insights that I have never realised before. I am also able to realise that I should not limit my relationship with him as lovers, who knows maybe he will turn out to be one of my best friends in life? The Universe is always full of surprises. :)
Yesterday I received my rainbow obsidian pendant. When I ordered it online, it was pure impulse - and also I knew I needed to get myself grounded. Did some research that obsidian is supposed to act as a “mirror”, to let us see our darkest self and inner demons. And now looking back, it is the Universe’s way of guiding me towards my own healing. Miracles happened! After meditating with my obsidian for about half an hour, in which what I did was just holding onto the pendant, closing my eyes and doing nothing. I watched as my thoughts passed by, and then I resumed my work as usual. Out of the blue, thoughts started rushing in to the extent that I could not contain. I began to see - that everything that has ever happened to me - were the mirrors to my own behaviours. It was like a heavy blockage had been lifted, and there was sudden revelation. So I kept on jotting down these thoughts, these new perspectives, these little pieces of miracles that came towards me.
I think that “mirror” is the keyword. The most destructive thing that I had done to myself, was that I used sadness to heal my own sadness, and ended up hating myself. I would like to write more on the little details I have found, but I think it would be better to focus on the tarot readings specifically in the following section.
I began to make connections - of the past and the present, of the outer world and the inner world,of others and myself. Everything flowed through me naturally, that I found it unbelievable. Years ago I thought that the law of attraction and self-affirmations were all bullshit; now I know, if only I have learnt to listen and accept, things would change.
Looking back the day I received your tarot readings, which was on the 4th April - till now, only 12 days have passed, yet, so much changes have happened within me. Not to mention, it has only been two days since our call, and the Universe has shown me so many miracles. I believe that now I have gone through the phases of reversed Chariot and Four of Cups. I have come forward to receive the Ace of Pentacles the Universe offers. This is my new beginning ( page of pentacles ), and as I am embarking on this journey, so many miracles have performed in front of my very eyes. I am able to see my past, understand my behaviours and also replace old concepts with fresh insights; and the most surprising part is that I am able to forgive. Yesterday night, while trying to fall asleep, I had this sudden urge to thank those people who have helped me and accompanied me in life, and also to forgive my past relationships. So, I got to my phone and started sending messages. I thanked those who supported me, and they replied with words of reassurance and encouragement. I sent messages to my ex boyfriend, saying that I forgave him and I don’t hate him anymore. I gave my blessing to him and wish that he would find his own happiness in life. He replied that he’s happy to hear from me and wish for my happiness too. At that very moment, all the hatred and pain dissolve, and I feel so peaceful. So this is the power of forgiveness, I thought to myself. I plan to send more messages out, especially to the people I love, to thank them for being there for me, giving me advice and support. I believe that it is never too late to show gratitude.
As for the Four of Wands, which depicts stability, harmony and balance, I believe the steps I am taking now are the foundation. I realise that this is a process and only with persistence and work, plus patience, things will manifest towards my dreams. I am also feeling secure and more at ease with myself now. As for the High Priestess, I believe that I have to listen to my higher self in order to seek my life purpose. It is still quite vague, but I have always had this feeling that I want love and peace for everybody, and I want people to feel empowered and love. I want no more suffering for human beings. Maybe this is what leads me to my current profession, which is a teacher. I have always wanted the best for my students, and I constantly nudge them to seek their life purposes. Along the way, I have also come to better terms with myself. I believe that the way I treat my students is the way that my inner self wishes to be treated. So from now on, I will be gentler, more compassionate and patient while listening to my heart’s desires.
Last but not least, the Lovers card which has brought me tears when I first received the readings, now brings a sense of peace and calm. At first I cried looking at it because I thought I would never be able to achieve it; and now that the Universe has shown me guidance, I believe that I deserve true love.
I really loved the cup metaphor and the light switches. Now I am able to see things more objectively, taking a step backward and analyse the contents of my cup before making accusations of others’ behaviours. The light switches I have done for these two days have helped me tremendously, giving me possibilities and ideas to help heal myself and my relationship with others. Thank you so much, Anjali, for appearing in my life in such wonderful timing, and for speaking in a language that is so full of gentleness and wisdom. It’s been a long time that I've ever felt so alive, and so happy to be alive.
Anjali, you are a beautiful soul. Your kindness and sincerity are enough. Years ago I would not even dare to dream of such a person showing up in my life. Thank you, thank you and thank you.
I am also looking up more on Louise Hay. She is another wonderful soul indeed.
I am Love.
Love,
Lyndsey
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