Sometimes you forget how to smile, and how to laugh.
There are times where you are there, watching laughter fills the air, but it just doesn't come to you. As if you are impenetrable, by emotions. So you sat there watching. There are times where it is so noisy around you, but all you can feel is silence. There are times where you are surrounded by throngs of people, but all you can feel is loneliness. You forget, how warmth feels like.
Sometimes you rather you forget everything, you wish there was never a beginning, so that there'll be no story, no sad ending. Sometimes you rather you have no memories, so that those beautiful haunting ones won't come back and pierce your soul. Sometimes you wish there was never you in the first place, so you won't end up like this, like now.
So you learn that forgetting is a good thing, because you forget those fears and injuries. But in the end you forget those happiness and love, and in the end you are no different than a piece of statue. You want to regret, but you feel no guilt; you want to laugh, but you feel no happiness; you want to cry but you feel no pain.
And you forget how to live.
